I think the hardest part of coming back to God is the transition.
It’s hard because you still want to act like you did before, and people treat you the exact same. They don’t know that you’ve changed yet, so they expect someone different. It’s hard for me because I’m living for God now, and if I tell people that they’ll be confused. They’ll bring up things in my past. I don’t like my past. I wish it weren’t there.
I know I shouldn’t care, but I’m human. I’m weak by myself – only strong through him, through God, that’s for sure. Change is something I am not exactly good at, but I’m going to have to change. I’m not going back to that place where I was before.
My past is behind me, and I will let it worry about itself. I will not worry about anything. I will fight for what I know and trust, because I know God has a plan for me.
Jeremiah 29:11 – “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a Hope and a Future.”
